Happy Tuesday Everyone!
I hope you're all having a great day so far! I wish I could say that I'm in the best of moods but after visiting my Dr. yesterday.....I am far from that!! As much as I try to not put my personal business out here; I really need to get this off my chest so please bear with me.....
I didn't announce any New Year's resolutions or anything like that...I never do. For those that don't know, I was in a terrible car accident 2 years ago and lost the ability to use the right side of my body. As with any injured person with limited mobility; you gain a little bit of weight & I'm no exception. I can look in the mirror and see that I'm not *perfect* if YKWIM.
I've been working out really hard since January of this year, exercising, lifting weights, jumping rope...etc. My clothes fit a lot better, I look & feel great---this came from my Dr. himself. HOWEVER, the scale says that I weigh.....160 lbs!!! I need to lose 30 lbs to be within the *healthy* guidelines for my height. You have no idea how my heart sank when I stepped on the scale.....my husband tells me that I'm just solid, a lot of muscle because I lift weights like people change clothes. How can it be possible that someone that barely eats, exercises daily & can get into clothes that she never thought she would again be overweight? I am so frustrated, in tears just thinking about the struggle ahead of me to lose 30 lbs so I can be considered HEALTHY!!!!
I went on a nice long bike ride this morning, sweating my butt off and then came home and followed my regular exercise program. I ate a Special K bar for breakfast and drank water.....what's that 90 calories! I haven't had a snack or anything because I'm not hungry.....I don't know what else to do. I will continue on my path although it's been 6 months and I've managed to gain instead of lose. Maybe they're right.....muscle weighs more than fat and I shouldn't lift weights anymore---HOWEVER---everyone knows that you should tone as you lose so that you'll look FIRM instead of FLABBY! I hate scales, I don't even have one in my home & I'm for sure not buying one now. I am at a loss, ready to give up but not going to, frustrated, pretty pissed off & crying at the same time because of what the stupid scale says........
I'm going to try and create something pretty.....hoping that takes my mind off all this crap and just focus. Thank you for lettting me vent and hope you all have a great rest of the day!